Spinning...spinning...

I promised myself in this blog that I would be really honest and I wouldn't apologize for my thoughts and feelings, so here goes.
2 Years ago my sweet baby Sophia came home and really truly life as I knew it changed. She has brought so much true joy into my life. Her innocent smile and laugh make my heart feel this fullness that I've never experienced before. However, I also stopped working a full time job. I've had some sort of job since I was 12 whether cleaning out horse stalls or out and about working as a translator, so not working outside of the house has been a real challenge to me! I love staying home with Sophia but I miss working and having something to pour myself into. I can pour myself into my family, my house, even my running but I miss other types of challenges too and let's be really honest I miss earning some money! There are probably 10 jobs that I would love to do or 10 master programs that are interesting to me. Sometimes I feel like I'm spinning and searching. Sometimes I feel totally not so centered. I know I've been honest with you about having ADD and it's interesting how even as an adult it affects my daily life. So I think even that is part of thinking, spinning, searching feeling that I have sometimes. Anyway, I am on a search. I am trying to figure out what I WANT to do, what is interesting to me, what makes me feel alive, what would make me fulfiilled. I'm not at a point in my life where I just want to settle for some random career. So that is what I'm working. I'm trying to narrow it down to 3. I would love any suggestions you have too.
Don't settle. Keep dreaming. Keep believing. Don't make excuses. If you have something you want to do, learn, or experience find a way. Make a plan. Honestly, don't wait till tomorrow. Don't wait till you have enough money or time. Stop spinning, sit down with yourself, sit down with your life, let yourself dream. What do you love to do? Why aren't you doing it?